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An Uncle Abound
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10:34 am
So as some of you guys know.
I am going to be an uncle.
My sister is pregeant at 18. ETA date in September.
Words can’t really be put in words the amount of feelings that has been going through these past months.
The talks with my sister telling me the first time when she confided in me.
The decisions whether to have it or not.
The telling of our parents.
The anger…..the joys…..the hopes……the regrets………
Even though she is the one having this baby. The proverbial saying: “It takes a villages to raise the baby.”
That is very true in this case. I admired the fact the boyfriend is taking responbility of this child. He’s 19. But we all talk to both of them to help them weigh in their decision. My sister life will be put on hold for a year. Her schooling and dreams. But she is an adult, albeit a young and innocent 18 year old. Who hasn’t see the world that my brother and I seen it. We try to put things in preceptive but in vain. The stubborn gene is very strong in this family (with the exception of myself.)
How does being an uncle of my sister’s child feel to me at this time. Intially I was joyful but it quickly turn to uncertainties for me right now. I should be happy but yet I am not. I feel that my sister is not the same sister a few months back. I sensed the confrontations, the helplessness, even the uncertainties as well. I wish she can confine in me but I can’t forced it out of her.
Being neutral sucks. But I know my feelings will change when my niece or nephew is born. I am not harboring bitterness or sadness, just a lot of uncertainties of a bunch of new emotions that recently has surfaced.
I’m outz,
CHris
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1/22/2005
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Well Talking Things Out Does Help.
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8:35 pm
Remember M from back in July/June? and how we ended things??. Well last Saturday I ran into him at the clubs and he was glad to see me and I was glad to see him. Gosh seeing him flooded back the good feelings I had for him. He and I talk briefly and we both have apologize on how we have acted to each other that night. I got back his number and call him the next day. HE CALL ME BACK!!! We decided to spend some together tonight (along with the merlot I bought for him.) and talk things out about on all the mistunderstandings that we have for each other. I was so glad that we did because it help me put preceptive into the feelings that I had for him. We both decided to forgive and forget and start slowly and dating again. We’re not a couple just yet because we don’t want to rush into anything. It’s only fair. But the chemistry is still definately there. We both have confess that the chemistry with other guys we dated weren’t the same. This is a new year and we’ll see where it goes. Have a great weekend all.
I’m outz,
CHris
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Disappointments and Being Supportive
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7:28 pm
Sorry I havent been around.
Right now with work and what going among my siblings has been too much to be able to write on this blog at this moment.
But I am disappointed in my sister right now. But that disappointment stems for something I won’t reveal just yet. It caused both my brother and I lots of grief right now and we are stragetizing on how to deal with this issue. We were both not too happy with the events that has happen and to come and all I can do is let my sister make the decision. She is 18 after all and an adult. But she won’t have to deal with all the fires that will arises from this. But she is my little sister after all and being the loving bigger brother that I am, I must give my unconditional love to her and her decision.
Why must life constantly throw me these curve balls?? Just when you think you got your life back on track. Another train derails. Please give me the inner strength to deal with this.
I’m outz,
CHris
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Friendships for the New Year
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8:59 pm
I have a great new years eve. I have finally broken my New Year’s curse. Ironically it was 7 years running. It got to be that mirror I broke 7 years ago.
Just kidding.
This year a lot of my friends resolutions included in strengthening the ones we have already. Tonight I spend the evening with my ex coworker Kat. This is the first time we had dinner by ourselves where we talk a lot about how bad our 2004 was and what 2005 might hold for us. Funny how much you learn about someone when you are outside the work enviroment. We both have the very difficult time of dating guys who understands the concept of “family first” and be bred biculturally. The dinner conversation branch out to various aspects of guys who are too American or too “fobby” to grasp the middle ground that we both walk on. Maybe we have high expectations of what we want but in the end, we want to find the right guy without settling on one guy because we are comfortable. It always nice to see someone who share that type of philosophy. Oh I am going to take her to a gay club next week so that will be fun.
Work is great right now. Really busy but havent been able to get online as much as a I want. I don’t want to ruin my chance by blogging at work. So late at night is the only time I can do it anymore.
But I am around.
I’m outz,
CHris
